Desember 20, 2012

Letter from Earth

Dear Folks,

Recently,  you realized one thing that you are standing all alone while life is getting so much harder. You've been crying for so many times, been feeling insecure for all ages and been suffering a lot for what you are going through. You know that they will judge you such "too exaggerate simple things", "complaining a lot". Well, you don't mean to exaggerate, but this is what you actually feel and they're supposed to (have) experience(d) the same thing as yours. Let's just say it's a transition time. Time when you are in line between your dream and reality, between your life and others, between your luck and destiny. Sometimes, you found yourself trapped in between and could never help yourself to go out. It's just that you don't know whose dream you are pursuing? Is it yours?

I am afraid of wasting my time for something that I am not supposed to do, yet there's always lesson I got for the thing such "something that I am not supposed to do". I mean, you may wish for grasping the Earth with your own two hands, yet the Earth is unreachable. Then, you start to think about grasping a half of it, yet it's still unreachable. Eventually, you decide to giving up the Earth and moving on to the small planet which promise you better life than Earth has, yet it's not what you really want. You are staying for the sake of your fear of failure caused by your previous efforts.

Does it seem unfair for yourself? You know what you want, but you are just too afraid of getting out. You wish you could have a better life in that planet while you know it's not. You earn something, but get nothing.
It's time to ask yourself what your dream really is. You may hear words of others telling you what you are supposed to do, underestimating, mocking, making fun of your dreams, but who the hell cares with them. This is your life. You control it and you are the creator of your own destiny. Why bother thinking of someone else's thought. You know what you have to do and you are ready for the risks you will bear. Success cannot be instantly achieved. Neither is gifted nor granted. It sacrifices life, time, energy, and even blood. 

Free yourself from mind and fear slavery! Reach your dreams even they seem impossible. The impossible is only for the unbeliever!

A dream catcher

November 05, 2012


Welcome back Monday!

I am not in a mood of working today because of  diarrhea. I didn't eat last night and craved for balado chips which is damn hot and spicy. Therefore, I suffered diarrhea.

Lately, I've been feeling so lonely. I don't think people around me can listen what I am actually going through especially this person who keeps telling her stories without even asking how's mine. Somehow, I could survive with it but sometime, it's just annoying. That's why I'd better not talking.

Actually, I am planning to move to new dormitory where I could indulge myself after working and feel safe as well as comfortable while staying in my own room.

Oktober 23, 2012


So, I am done with concert stuff.

Sometime, I found myself working more like and event organizer rather than secretary to the ambassador, yet it's fun and challenging!

It was only one week preparation for the concert: designing the invitation, printing, distributing both electronically and non-electronically invitations, organizing sound system engineer, dealing with venue manager, guests listing, going to the airport to pick up the band, organizing their accommodation and at the same time working on office administrative tasks (clerk), visa (good or us during that week we had less applicants) and arranging the seats formation for the concert. I am glad that everything was set in time!

I can say that the concert is successfully commenced. We had more than 150 guests and everyone had a great time!

I am so excited and do really LOVE my job! :*
Hopefully, I can always give my best and contribute more to Embassy! ;)

September 28, 2012

Don't get married unless you are 'ready'.

Something just came across my mind, "Marriage".

It never happened to me to think or even to consider my life will soon end with becoming wife of  Mr. Who.
No, I mean I just found out that my life is getting closer to that big event of everyone's life. They said that marriage is the highest accomplishment in human's life. I previously depicted marriage life as awesome as 'Cinderella' or 'Snow White and the 7 dwarfs", but then it turns to freak me out when I should face the truth that 'Getting Married' is unbelievably not just that awesome as it's depicted.

I am Indonesian after all which people give too much concern into technical things that so called cultural stuffs whatsoever. I don't give too much shit, though. It's just...I tell you, marriage is a gate for you to enter a complex labyrinth space; once you get in, there's no turning back. No, I don't mean to exaggerate or to freak you out. It's just to reconsider your decision before it's too late. Late to regret. Importantly, you should know  very well person who is going to marry you; his/her family, background and other small things which would possibly grow bigger if you can start to talk about them  and even you should know about yourself; whether you will be able to mingle in such family, to love them as big as you love your own family, whether you could live the way they live and the other way around and whether their family could gladly receive and treat you as good as they treat their children. Those things should be fully considered before you step to marriage life. By the way, I suggested you to consider those things, but suddenly those shits scared me much. Errr...  

OK. Overall, the most important thing is commitment. Base your commitments strongly so you could build your life steadily unbreakable. Don't forget to put faith on it.

After all, hopefully we will make a happy sweet long-lasting family! :-)


September 26, 2012

Surat untuk Semesta

Dear Semesta,

Sudah lama aku tak menyapamu. Apakah kau baik-baik saja?

Jangan tanyakan bagaimana kabarku karena ku yakin kau lebih mengetahui apa yang telah, sedang dan akan terjadi dalam hidupku. Bukan begitu wahai Semesta?

Mari melebur dan berdialektika.. Waktu pekat di Taman Gantung Aurora.


New Stage of Life

Halo I am now back as a robot!

It's been mostly more than a year since I wrote my last post. Thesis stuffs kept me busy and drew my attention for nothing else. I have officially got my degree! It took me 3,5 years to engage in Kierkegaard's project,  but it's totally awesome. OK. Let's not talk too much about what had happened.
You may see now I am sitting helplessly in my office waiting for my boss' instructions. NO, it's somehow cool working back here. At least, it's one step closer to my dream when I was child. It doesn't seem perfect though. This is where I start my career. I always do my best for every single day just to reach the next stage of this 'game'.

Sometime, my life now is lonesome. I should wake up early and late for coming home. Less time to share, less time to read, less time to learn, and less time to sleep as well. My only best friend is only smart machines such computer and my blackberry. My laptop is getting too old to be played with. He coughs so much lately and suffers from fever or something. I don't have a heart to push him. He was so much helpful while I was working on my thesis. He woke up almost 24 hours a day accompany me to knit of my dreams. I just now realize that he needs to take a bed rest, but please do not leave me so soon because I still need you, laptop  :( I think I should get round him to go to hospital. Once I have collected some money, I'll fix you, dear. Both of us are lonesome after all.

In spite of such lonesome, I am happy and thank to GOD for what He grants me: family, job which allows me to meet great people like my Ambassador--Mr. Jovan, Mrs. Olga, Mr. Vladan and Mr. Andrej and my future life, Putra. They are such a blessing to me. Thanks God :-)